Maybe you're just missing Steve, Paul? I miss him too. The man was pretty much the last of the geniuses, and that we spent most of our adult lives connected with him, well, sure, I feel a hole.
Obviously we know the disconnect, but there was something there that went beyond the "he had a hand in designing this machine that I work on." It was always something personal. I have a dozen stories, as do you.
My gf's dad gave me the book for Xmas, and I still don't want to read it. Maybe I feel like it would be the end of an era for me. Maybe I don't want it to end. But it is, and it did.
So it goes.